Portrayed by a blind painter

by Nothence

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released October 1, 2012

Written and produced by Fabio Scagliola

Fabio Scagliola - Guitars, bass, vocals, and piano
Pietro Micheletti - Drums

Recorded and mixed by Alberto Rapetti in Verona, Italy, April-August 2012. Additional production and engineering by Alberto Rapetti

Album art, photos, and design by Fabio Scagliola

The sun is coming back lyrics by Matteo Scagliola


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Nothence Switzerland

Nothence is an independent alternative rock music project started by Fabio Scagliola in Lugano, Switzerland, in 2009. The fourth instrumental post-rock studio album "Proposed tracks for unproduced movies" was released on December 1, 2018. Three other studio albums were previously released: "Post mortem memento vivere" (2016), "Public static void" (2014), and "Portrayed by a blind painter" (2012). ... more

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Track Name: Alone
I hope I'll learn the rules before it's too late
I will hold my position evolving by not moving
You'll find me here, lying on the floor when you come knocking
On my door; I don't want you by my side
I'd rather be alone

Keep on looking ahead
I will not change my mind
I will keep on staring at the sun
Until I go blind
I won't change direction

Desperation made me hang on to you
You and many other unlikely handholds until I learned
It hurts even more, when you're hanging from a ledge collapsing and
You fall with it; I rely on my strengths only
I learned to be alone
Track Name: Empty room
I don't want to see that empty room
I don't want to walk in there alone
Too much light will blind my eyes
Empty like the hall beyond the skies

Lock the door
Leave it all behind
I don't want to see the empty room
He will come to find
When the lions roar
Sirens disappearing from his mind

Will you walk with me inside the room?
Will I help you wear the shiny dress?
I don't know if that suits you
Or am I just too scared to let you in?
Track Name: Friend
If you want to be my friend
It's time for you to realize
That I don't want to share your tales
About the way you fuck him

I don't think you know me
Just because you saw me crying
You've always got the answers to the questions
That I haven't even asked

Take a picture of my hand
And shake it on your own
Take a picture of my lips
And kiss it when you're alone

I don't see the reason why
You stand so close to me
I've never told you that I need your
Support to stand tall

You keep complaining that your efforts
Drain your energies
But I guess the way it works between us
It's the other way around
Track Name: Hand in hand
Dreamt a non-molded being
In the darkest emptiness
A fetus of pale white
Emitting light of consciousness
Approaching, the creature grows
Evolving into a man
Unfinished albino
His face's got no identity

Beings invoked by a god
Too afraid to grow old
Feel inadequate to
Walk with him hand in hand

Here and now, he can bend
Space and time to his will
As he drinks from the chalice
Individuals become one
Hair falls out of his body
Covered by primordial ooze
Those who respond to the call
Give up reality

They leave their ego behind
Not afraid to become
What they were meant to be
Now they walk hand in hand
Track Name: Immortality
Do you ever think that you would
Actually would kill yourself?

If I ever thought about it
Yes, then I believe I would

Some die just to live
Track Name: It hurts
Hey dad, do you remember that new student of mom's?
He sometimes pays a visit, always when you're gone
Once I felt like they wanted me to leave them two alone
Did mom tell you what I saw when I went upstairs?!

It hurts
I feel so alone

I washed away her black tears dried on my white pillow
And so the perfume that the sheets had stolen from her
The scar left by her cigarette on the back of my hand
The harder I scratch, the longer it will last
Track Name: No name
The pain originates from
The throat and the chin
Moves down to the chest now and spreads
The heart's under siege
Contractions of a tissue
Beyond control
The body suffers from what
The mind was denied

The anger rises
Defenses engage
Enthusiasm is panic
Going to give it up before the end

Look through pictures sliding on the glass
Focus on the light ring and loose the grip
The bright cone's spinning counterclockwise again
No name you know to define yourself

The man in the mirror combs his
His long golden curls
Was told that he looked like an angel
When he was a child
He now feels like punching his chest and
And crash into it
To eradicate that grown hair
That wraps up his heart

The room's still empty
The heart loses beats
Nothing translates to fire
Still I'm not going to forget nor forgive
Track Name: On my own
You try to be like others
Just to feel you're someone
You try to be different
So you can blame somebody else
You're lost in the context
And still you feel alone
Why didn't you tell me?!
I could have spent some time
Some time on my own

I'm glad I had the chance
The chance to see you naked
Be sure I won't regret!
We don't share anything
I'm glad without me you can
Be yourself completely
You don't have any boundaries
That contain your sickness

You've never asked yourself why
You want what you want
Do you really need it?
Or do they want you to do so?!
You're lost in the context
And still you feel someone
You should have told me!
I would have spent some time
Some time on my own
Track Name: Pattern of survival
She wrote the story and she mailed it to the editor
She delivered it herself and approved its publication. Now she
Runs to the bookstore and points her finger to the copy
Of her book in the window, but she knows
That she's the only one who can see it

It does exist
For you at least
It's what you feel
That makes it real

This is just another pattern
A pattern of survival
Just another crazy pattern
A pattern of survival

He spends his days and nights accumulating knowledge
Which he loves to share with the many friends he's got
When he saw the freak on that video of him,
He realized that nobody ever could
Have understood one word he had spoken

If you exist
For you at least
It's what you feel
That makes you real
Track Name: Reminder
The cat scratches the kid
Daddy slaps the cat
Mommy wakes up drunk
And unleashes her hell

When I look into your
Eyes and my heart trembles
Hope my nose starts bleeding
So I won't forget

No more tries are needed
My skin carries your scars
Thanks for the reminder
I won't forget

Here is where I breathe
You don't fit in here
I've got my ghosts to fight
Get out of my place

Next time when I see you
And butterflies flap their wings
Hope my nose starts bleeding
So I won't forget

No more tries are needed
I've got enough scars to lick
Thanks for the reminder
I won't forget
Track Name: The sun is coming back
After all this long, long rain of tears
The sun is coming back
The sky is clear again
Track Name: Unable
Do I miss her?
Or do I just feel lonely?
Do I love her?
Or am I disappointed?
It must have happened to me
Because I'm strong enough
I had to reach the bottom
At least I hope I did

When you were lying beside him
You could still feel the sheets warm
Warm as you and I had left them

Waves don't show respect
For those who have something to give
At most they would not trust them
Creative-hearted people

We deal just fine now
We do respect each other
That doesn't help me
I'm unable to detach from you
Track Name: Where are you?
Where are you?
Now that I'm looking for you
Where are you?
Anesthetic for my restless thoughts
Without you
I feel the need to love and be loved
Make me insensitive
Unaware, happily stoned

I wonder where you are now that I want you
I wonder where you are now that I need you

When the heart
Doesn't send and receive enough love
The brain will start
Asking questions and looking for answers
But answers won't come
All the answers lie in you
I won't give up
I will keep looking for you
Track Name: Who am I?
Who am I to bear the load they want to share with me?!
Have I ever wished to be the perfect listener?!
She may not be productive, but she knows how to shake her ass
They both leave early and come late - nobody's blind inhere

He's too hungry after years of role-playing frustration and
He cannot see the look upon the faces of his family and his friends
He gave her the job and now he promises she'll have his heart one day
Maybe she's in love... until the day she'll realize
And then guess what...
Don't look at me!
Shut your mouth and close your eyes

As I earn their confidence I put his role at risk
Should I care about the balance and cut all the rumors down?!
Repellently attractive - something about her
Am I really going to help him or somehow I envy him?!

He got blinded by a candle in the dark room of responsibilities
Who am I to open up his eyes and help him see the truth?!
From the moment he denied, I realized he'd never be a friend
Threatened by his mirror image, turned his men into his slaves
And then guess what...
Don't dare to look at me!
Shut your mouth and close your eyes

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